Super freak

It’s been a while since I posted anything. Since my treatment finnished in March 2017 I have been off travelling the world and doing live-in care work for the elderly in the UK and office temping in NZ to pay for it

I got to see Polar Bears in the wild, and more of Canada. Orangutan in the wild in Sabah, I’ve been to Belgium, Hungary, Germany, Italy, Malaysia. I’ve explored small English villages and towns I would never have thought to visit. Met some amazing people along the way, and revisited friends and family in Scotland and England.

Most of the time I don’t think about Breast Cancer unless I meet someone who’s going through treatment or I’m due for my check up. I’ve tried different hormone drugs and after consistant side effects that started off being manageable and then became downright nasty and debilitating I made the decision to stop taking them. This was after trying the 3rd one, the one that should have been no issues, the one my surgeon talked me into trying because it was my last drug option and because I had an aggressive type of BC, also the one that I haven’t told my surgeon I’ve stopped taking.

The 3rd one started giving me the exact same symptoms the other 2 had started with and I’d had 6 weeks break before reluctantly trying tamoxifen. I decided to stop because I want to live my life and not just exist so I said sod the drugs, Cancer you’re going to  have to find me first

It’s coming up to my 3rd mammogram after being diagnosed and I’m really dreading it, I’m freaking out already and it’s still another 2 months away and I haven’t told anyone. Perhaps it’s the whole going off the recommended hormone treatment that’s playing on my mind even though there is absolutely no way I’m taking them again.

If anyone going through BC reads this, please don’t think that you’ll have the same experience, everyone is different and you need to make your own decision. You may not have any side effects, if it wasn’t for the awful joint and muscle pain I’d still be on Letrozole. I’m just one of the freaks whose body unfortunately does not tolerate these types of drugs. Just like taking one of those cold treatments that’s supposed to help you sleep can have the completely opposite effect on 1% of people who take them...that would be me too. I also don’t like watermelon, total freak. I should be part of a scientific research, is there a link in people who intensely dislike watermelon and drugs not working as they should on them???